Many of us get caught wandering from one aspect of ourselves to another.  For those of us with strong personality swings, the tearing away can become overwhelming.  Some days I can only wish for silence.  Some days I want stillness.  Some days I am so anxious I need to scream.  Will creativity sweep me away today?  Will I be blessed by boredom tomorrow?  What will that bring?

Personally I spent many years disappointed in my own progress toward any particular direction.  I felt capable of making anything happen.  However, what that anything was going to be eluded me.  When I finally discovered glass art as a medium of expression, I knew an important question had been answered. 

By discovering glass art, I mistakenly assumed I had found myself.  The complicated act of finding a rewarding outlet took me more than 25 years to  actualize.  The temptation was to relax into the artform and enjoy the rest of the journey at leisure. But dreams of what I wanted to create did not realistically represent my abilities.  In order to succeed I would need to work very hard.  I would need to practice... every day. 

I began to adopt a philosophy about myself.  I was two men sharing the same body, yet separated by time.  There is the man I am today and the man I want to be some time in the future.   I chose to interpret these two forms of myself as spheres of influence each represented by 360 degrees. 

The idea is that 720 degrees is the overlapping of these two forms of myself, which only occurs when the man I am today is pursuing the man I want to be in the future.    And this pursuit for me is the pursuit of happiness.

The Pursuit of Happiness